A Celebration of Me

Early birthday/Christmas celebration in Mexico.

A being of light, a mystic, and a powerful empath, living in a false paradigm that has been massively destructive to Mother Earth and nature, its been hard to ever feel as if I’ve belonged. But with the dawning of 2020, and the culmination of decades of evil finally very outwardly making itself known, I vow to never again hide in the shadows.

As perhaps the best year of my life comes to an end, I acknowledge all that life has thrown my way and the beauty and wisdom now being bestowed upon me.

I embrace ALL that God has created me to be, for He has done so with grand purpose. Age irrelevant to me, I celebrate the process, like that of a fine wine.

Life begins a new! Cheers!

Put behind me are all concerns of what anyone else might ever think of me. The superficial judgments because most are only capable of seeing what is on the surface. The opinions of people who would rather have my Light turned off than discover with me the beauty that likewise lies within themselves, are cast to the side.

I embrace the donning of the next year knowing that with each day life will only become more glorious. That beauty and splendor will continue to be shared with me in the incredible odyssey God has planned.

I will begin each day LIVING IN THE MOMENT. Eyes wide open to experience each new facet of this extraordinary life in this extraordinary time of living.

I set an intention, with a calm heart and a gentle mind, to appreciate not only the big milestone moments, but also the magnificence in all the simple things about life that typically get overlooked.

I open my heart to the passion that lies within, and in doing so, return to the person I once was, in sharing the compassion it longs to share.

I open my mind wider to all the truths and wisdom of Reality and the Higher consciousness of living. Closing any avenues that would otherwise allow the propaganda and brainwashing by the controlling forces entry. Refusing to be affected by the fear-based living desired from the powerful elitists.

Perhaps most significantly, I open my soul to the light that lies within, giving it permission to shine brighter than it ever has. All barriers removed to God’s power that lives deep in my soul. Embracing the strongest aspect of my human self that has struggled so hard to find a place in this world.

I grant myself permission to end the last half of my life honoring all aspects of my being, but most importantly my soul, and letting it shine as brightly as humanly possible.

In doing all of this, I invite every being I encounter, in person or in written word, to do the same. To embrace ALL that they are. To go within to the deep scarey, yet profoundly rewarding aspects of self, tapping into the tremendous gifts and energy of human potential. Allowing transcendence of the false paradigm that holds humanity captive.

I encourage each and ever person looking for a better world to live in, a more sustainable planet to pass on to those who come after us, to look closely at their beliefs. To open their minds to the possibility that they have been living in the world’s largest lie, all in the guise to suppress the tremendous potential that exists within each and everyone of us. To discover the planet’s largest untapped natural resource, the God given gifts we each possess.

I celebrate my day of birth not only for me, but for the wish and desire that all of humanity discover their potential that will offer to them a more powerful and fulfilling way of life. Because…Revolution Begins With Me.

Namaste.

The Great Conjunction: Jupiter and Saturn Align in Aquarius

great conjunction 2020

A year of rare extraordinary celestial events is coming to a close, but not without a couple more highly charged Galactic events. Today being the Great Conjunction, a time when Jupiter and Saturn align at the same degree of the zodiac, Aquarius. The last 20 years aligning in earth signs, today marks the first alignment with an air sign.

As Jupiter and Saturn align in Aquarius it is going to kickstart a new era. It is also going to usher us deeper into the Age of Aquarius. *

The Jupiter Saturn alignment is also believed to color and shape the decades to come. *

For the last 200 years, as Jupiter and Saturn have been coming together in earth signs, they have shaped and defined the world we currently live in. *

Earth energy is very tangible. It is all about building things, creating foundations, using the resources of the Earth, and focusing on material possessions. *

Under this Earth energy, we have achieved a lot, but the time has come for a shift back into balance. We need to move away from material possessions, from robbing the Earth of its resources, and away from creating the tangible to creating the intangible. *

And that is where the air energy of Aquarius comes into play. Aquarius energy is revolutionary, high-tech, and all about creating things that work through waves, signals, and beams. Rather than wanting to create something tangible, Aquarius energy is all about the digital world. *

Along with the world becoming more digital, we may also start to see a rise in community-based living. Rather than looking to big organizations or government, we may instead find the support we need from our own community members. Creating a sense of community may also feel more important or necessary. *

As the sign that rules over humanitarian efforts, we may also see developments surrounding issues such as homelessness, world hunger, and equal rights. *

Aquarius energy allows us to focus on what is good for the whole. Rather than focusing solely on our own needs and wants, we are able to see that we are all connected and that we all need to come together in order to create a better world. *

When this energy is in balance, it allows us to create a more peaceful and compassionate world where we are able to put ourselves in the shoes of others, where we are able to create supportive and loving communities, and where we are able to work together and share common goals. *

This is the Age of Aquarius utopia that has been sung about and talked about for decades. This is the better life we can envisage for ourselves, where we are all honored for our individual spark but then also connected and working together as a whole and for the greater good. *

Like with all things, there is a dark side to this energy too that we have to be mindful to avoid. *

When not in balance, this energy can make us ignore the beliefs of others and fall into a “group think” mentality. Rather than being able to think for ourselves, we are told what to believe and have to follow the group in order to feel accepted. *

We need to be mindful of not allowing our own individual spark to be lost in trying to serve others and our community. We need to make sure we are acting from a place of truth and authenticity, or we will find that society becomes based on ideas of a single few rather than the collective. *

We have 200 years to find this balance, as both Jupiter and Saturn will travel through predominantly air signs for this next cycle. *

It is assumed that none of us reading this will live to see the completion of this cycle, so it is a pretty rare and special thing that we have been chosen to see the start of it! *

In your own life, you can embrace the energies of this cycle by thinking about where you have been too attached to material possessions or items. *

You may also wish to reassess some of your goals. While earth energy is very supportive for creating tangible goals, this rise of air energy wants us to be more free and fluid. *

Rather than trying to manifest our goals, we should instead focus on bringing ourselves into a state of complete alignment. From this place, our goals and whatever we wish to manifest comes naturally. *

It wants us to remember the power of our thoughts and that our thoughts are powerful seeds and signals of creation. *

When we are in a place where we feel aligned and in an authentic headspace, we are automatically attracting whatever is best for us. *

Allow your energetic being and thoughts to become conduits or signals for the reality you wish to create. Beam up and out not from a place of ego, but from your higher self. *

To get into a state of alignment is no easy thing! It requires us to surrender, love ourselves, and to step into our authentic truth. It is a constant work in progress, but the more steps we take, the more we focus on expanding and growing our spiritual mind, the further we will get on our journey. *

We can also tap in to the energies of Jupiter and Saturn for clues on how to work with this energy. *

Jupiter is the planet associated with abundance and expansion. Its energy is naturally optimistic and allows us to see possibilities and potentials. *

Jupiter expands whatever it touches, allowing us to welcome abundance and to see things with a greater clarity. Jupiter is considered to be the lucky planet and the one that brings us our natural gifts and rewards in this life. *

Saturn in many ways is seen as the opposite, however this is a bit of mistaken identity. Saturn is considered a harsh planet that likes to impose rules and restrictions. *

It wants us to set boundaries and may make us feel held back and even oppressed. Its energy is similar to that of a strict teacher, always wanting us to follow the rules, work hard, and scolding us when we don’t. *

However, Saturn is also where we do our most growing and most learning. *

It is through Saturn that we are able to mature, to become wiser, and to find our true inner strength and power. *

Saturn is also considered the Lord of Karma. By working through the lessons of Saturn, we are able to clear our karmic debts and hopefully attract more good karma our way. *

Saturn is our constant reminder that all debts need to be paid. But once they have and the lesson has been learned, we are able to upgrade ourselves to the next level of evolution. *

Both Jupiter and Saturn coming together in this conjunction is like the Lord of Karma meeting the planet of expansion. Here, Jupiter is able to shine a light on all of our Saturn lessons. It is able to soften them, make us see them with more clarity, but also in many ways, expand them. *

As the Jupiter Saturn conjunction is so pivotal, this energy affects us on a global level too. It is almost like Earth is waking up to its karma. In many ways, our entire planet is advancing to a new level and looking for debts to be paid. *

Whatever our collective Earth karma is, this Great Conjunction has arrived to set things into balance. *

On a global level, whatever needs to be repaid will have to be repaid. Whatever is owed will have to be given. *

There is no escape. In a sense, this is that moment where the collective deeds of humanity are weighed against the feather of life, and we are able to see what needs to adjusted and set right. *

On deeper spiritual levels, this alignment of Jupiter and Saturn indicates a rise in consciousness for the planet, where we are able to see with more clarity the karmic energy of the globe, and what we can do to create more balance. *

It is also interesting to note that both Jupiter and Saturn will come together at zero degrees of Aquarius, which is a highly charged point of any zodiac sign. *

0 degrees represents infinite potential and possibilities. It represents a time where all things are possible and a new foundation is opening. *

On this day, it will feel like Earth is moving through a portal of energy where it will be rebirthed and hold millions of new possibilities for all of us. *

This is very fertile, which indicates new beginnings on a grand scale. Earth will never be the same again and as beings of this Earth, we will have no choice but to adapt and embrace this new chapter that is on offer to us. *

The energy of the Great Conjunction will feel most powerful in the weeks leading up to it and the weeks after it. Then it will fade into the background of our lives, where it will continue to influence us most strongly for the coming years. *

If all of this magnificent energy were not enough, it is coupled with the fact that today marks the 2020 winter solstice. The day when the amount of light in the

Along with this, today being the winter solstice, the day with the shortest period of daylight and longest night of the year, when the Sun is at its lowest daily maximum elevation in the sky.

The Solstice is a time where the veil between dimensions is thin. It is also a time where we are more open and connected with the energies of the Earth. We are able to feel with greater ease that we are not just beings on this Earth, but beings of the Earth.. *

Spiritual Significance of December 21, 2020

All of the cosmic energy this year has been leading us to the closing of a massive karmic cycle for the planet. As this portal on the Total Solar Eclipse opens and intensifies under the Great Conjunction, we will all be able to step into a “New Earth”.*

Our Earth is being forced through this tunnel of spirals. As it moves through this tunnel it is pressurized so much that it is forced to split into two as it leaves the tunnel. Almost like a cell dividing. *

These two cells are of the same Earth, but they represent two new energy dynamics that we get to work with on this planet that were not previously available to us before. *

One of these “cells” represents falling back further into the old karmic patterns, almost like we are not progressing or moving forward as we keep repeating the same loop. If we keep moving on this path, eventually we go beyond the past we know and into a deeper darkness.

The other “cell” represents moving forward into new ways never seen before. We move into stretching our abilities as human beings and being able to create things that are not even currently perceivable by our minds. If we keep moving on this path, eventually we stretch ourselves to new and higher levels of consciousness.*

The choice of which “cell” we wish to follow is our own and for most people, we may find ourselves balancing between both. *

Essentially, the frequency of the planet is expanding. We are able to tap into higher frequencies than before, but also lower frequencies than before too. *

The frequencies that we are familiar with before this split happens will also become easier to maintain and to access. This means that all of the high frequency energies we have connected with in the past will be easier for us to operate from. *

Many other psychics and intuitives have picked up similar messages about December 21st. Many talk about it being a “timeline split” where there will be this further divide out of 3D living and into 5D living. *

For those living in 5D, new frequencies and light codes will also be attainable and this is what is exciting! Who knows what new abilities or spiritual wisdom and knowledge will start making its way to Earth? *

For those living in 3D, life will keep following on the the same trajectory, however depending on where their frequency is positioned, they may be able to sense either this growing light or the deepening of the dark. *

With certainty, we are moving into an exhilarating and creatively inspirational time of living. Free will remains in each of our hands as to which avenue we decide to travel. For me, the answer is certain, as it’s a road I know well journeying down it for quite some time now. I move forward with excitement in my heart and pure bliss in my soul, for the Revolution Begins With Me.

Namaste.

*Check out Tanaaz at Foreverconscious.com

It’s The Small Things

Thank you to my 1st 100!! And all others that will follow!

In reference to the title of a blog post from earlier today, celebrating a small success here on WordPress.

After approximately 2 months of consistent blogging, minus my 10 day hiatus for our unforgettable fabulous recent vacation to Xcaret, Mexico, today brought me my 100th follower.

Shout out to Edge of Humanity Magazine, https://edgeofhumanity.com/ for allowing me my mile stone. Appropriate and fitting title to the world I see around me and the message I want to share.

Edited version from my initial post as another mile stone was met. 😁🥰

I anticipate the amazing connection to fellow bloggers and beyond to only grow exponentially in the months and years ahead.

A big thank you to all who are already following. Each and everyone of your blogs and stories brings a new facet to this writer’s dimension.

Namaste and One Love to all!

The Simple Things

Finding my daughter’s hibiscus plant with not only an open flower, but with two more buds ready to soon blossom, and one bud on one of my larger plants doing the same, it truly made me stop to acknowledge the beauty of the simple things in life.

The hibiscus one of my favorite flowers, always thriving in Missouri summers, I wasn’t even sure this plant would survive, bringing it in a bit too late, removed from a spring project we created together.

The frost having already arrived this fall before I got it transplanted. Most of the leaves damaged by the cold. Placing it in our big open south facing living room windows. It has thrived with a bit of TLC and water.

Lingering in the after glow of our trip to Mexico. Pondering on the wonderful Mexican people we met throughout, and the happiness that was infused within all whom I met. Living much simpler lives than most Americans, yet so much more at peace and filled with true joy.

It got me reflecting on an all time favorite quote from Henry David Thoreau, one I acknowledge in the first chapter of my book, The Advocate, as it was a quote that inspired me to take the “Road less traveled” and live from a similar life’s perspective, while following the guidance of Frost’s words in his infamous poem.

“I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. … I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life.” Thoreau

Time, most especially this year, has made me realize I truly have lived a life far off of the beaten path. One that at times was difficult, not so much in my sacrifices, but with my mind’s comparisons to others.

Watching my children as they grew. Knowing they knew their lives were much different than most. Yet, knowing deep in my heart and soul that one day they would appreciate the way they were raised and acknowledge, that yes, perhaps their dear old mom did know best.

Those days have arrived, as they mature into fine young adults because of my choices. I sit back and look more at my life for a change. Acknowledging my kindred connection to Thoreau and the fact in many ways, I have become the new age version of the words he once professed.

Living simply doesn’t mean living with less. It means living more deeply with the important facets of life not being those of material means. But rather, the beauty and splendor of what Mother Earth has to offer.

Sunrise over the Caribbean. Best part of the day.

The energy created, the life generated, when we nurture her splendor and beauty, as opposed to stripping and depleting her of natural resources for our own selfish wasteful material desires.

I have never been embarrassed by the way I live, but I have been very conscious of the way others would look down on me, and my family, thinking they somehow lived a more fulfilling life. This year, especially though, I embrace that part of me with even more vigor.

I embrace life with a more abundant bouquet of energy. And, I celebrate my experiences as I take my enjoyment of the simple things Mother Earth continues to bless me with during all the seasons of the year, and all the seasons of my life.

My yoga kitty Ozzy! Constant reminder to find your bliss in every minute.

I give thanks to my kindred brother Thoreau, for educating me on the important tenets of life at such a young age, and for the rewards it has allowed me to reap along the way, with the truly big harvest soon to come.

I open a door to sharing with others. Encouragement. Guidance. Support. In educating, that there is a much better way to live than chasing the almighty dollar and the materialism and endless consumerism that comes with it, leaving one feeling empty and unfulfilled at the end of the day, at the end of one’s life.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Mother Earth’s magic everywhere.

The pendulum is swinging back to the more simpler ways of living. I smile and thank God for giving me the foresight to be aware of what I had so many decades ago. Here to be a Light for others as the old paradigm begins to collapse in upon itself and a new one begins to open. A much more loving and peace-filled world awaits up ahead.

My life’s purpose to be a bridge to help other’s cross because … Revolution Begins With Me.

Namaste.

Planetary Karma

I’m not here to point a finger, but as a unified whole, we have an overwhelming amount of planetary karma to live out.

The world completely out of balance from its natural rhythm, its natural cyclic course. To anyone awake and watching, it has been beyond obvious that the pendulum was going to have to start to swing in the other direction.

The last century focused on destruction, all in the name of “progress”. People living mindlessly to the reality happening all around them. “Living from the ego” being the way of the land, with the human spirit neglected and all but forgotten.

The times we are living in now are Biblical. Natural order not allowing the once slow, but rapidly increasing annihilation of the globe to continue. Individuals focused on their own insignificant wants, as evil spread across the land like an invisible deadly gas.

In the world, but not of the world, I’ve been watching closely, clearing my own karma, making amends for my own past, and healing my own personal deep wounds. All the time wondering when the gauntlet was going to fall, with the year 2021 foremost in my mind.

May 31st, 2021 to mark the 100 year anniversary of the Tulsa Race Riots, the most heinous act of violence by Americans to their own people since the days of the Civil War. The largest loss of American lives since then on United States soil, yet up until a few years ago, virtually unheard of. Certainly not something found in any public high school or state university history book.

Even after 8 years of having a black man in office of the United States president, no reparations were sought to try and make amends to the victims, surviving and deceased, and their families. Still no public acknowledgement that this heinous event even occurred.

Over 300 African American residents were slaughtered when white mobs descended on Tulsa’s Greenwood district. Hundreds of homes and businesses were looted and torched, reducing much of the 35-square-block section of the city, commonly referred to as Black Wall Street, to rubble.

My own personal awakening to this event, over 10 years ago as I researched for my book, The Advocate, just exactly what made Oklahoma the deplorable place I discovered it to be during the time I lived there. This event was one out of several horrible occurrences as a state that I unearthed. Certain now, that there are many stories just like this, perhaps not as large scale, but that exist across our country.

Side note: Disheartened, but not surprised, speaking to a woman who worked as a journalist for the Tulsa Tribune, (the paper responsible for initiating the riot) back in the 1970’s, likewise, she had done her own investigating. None of the 328 people brutally murdered that day had any sort of death certificate on record.

All of these evil deeds, and ones that continue today at an accelerated pace, are coming into the light as the take over of our country tries to near its completion. People are FINALLY starting to wake up.

I am not alone in my viewpoint, or in my soul’s purpose. A planet scattered with Mystics and Healers, Lightworkers, and Shaman, all with minds, hearts, and souls open and aware that the planetary energy is changing, and that there is a dynamic paradigm shift underway. Each tuning in and doing his/her part to help ease the transition.

2020 descended upon the planet with the majority in shock and horror. For those with their eyes already open, the surprise was the cause, not the events themselves, with indicators becoming more and more obvious that dark times were descending.

The question becomes now, what do we do? How do we respond?

For me, the answer is easy. I have been preparing for this moment for more than two decades. Well aware, I will be on the forefront. Compassionate, yet vocal, as people open themselves, most especially their spirits, to a kinder, more gentle way of life on the other side.

There is no more living with blinders on, feeding our egos while the multitude suffer impalpably. The big curtain of evil pulled back with the attempted steal of the 2020 United States presidential election. Mainstream media still pumping the propaganda as the number of awake or awakening individuals finally tipping in the direction of change.

It is certain that hard times lie ahead, for significant transformation can only occur through tremendous upheaval and chaos. But, the “good men” and women are finally stepping up and stepping out. Igniting the fires of their souls to reclaim their country, to reclaim humanity.

Many will look on, confused, dazed, unaware which side loyalty and truth truly lies on, but that becomes irrelevant because the number of good God fearing Patriots out number. The long awaited for Revolution I have envisioned is underway and accelerating at warp speed. For those unsure of what is happening, best step out of the way!

Days ahead to become even more challenging, more formidable. History is in the making. I take my front row seat as it all begins to accelerate because … Revolution Begins With Me.

Namaste.

Mystery Within the Synchronicity

The more mature I get, the more firmly I believe that everything happens for a reason. That said, I learned a week and a half ago of what the real source of my anxiety was back on Monday, November 16th.

A highly intuitive empath, sometimes it gets tricky deciphering heavy emotions when they arise. And after all these years, I still sometimes forget that I usually feel the most intense emotions days, sometimes even weeks, before the cause of the emotion presents itself.

That all said, I got a phone call, a couple days before Thanksgiving from my oldest son. The long anticipated wedding was being called off, yet again. Not postponed this time, but put off for an indeterminate amount of time.

It seems the day I was experiencing all that anxiety, he was likely the source. Upon waking that day, the emails and phone calls starting coming in to him and his fiancé. They almost instantaneously had over 20 people back out, leaving the number down to 10, due to Covid, or Covid related reasons. Including the bride’s father who is a college basketball coach. (Her mother and grandmother already not on the guest list.)

At that point, they still planned on going ahead with the wedding. A work promotion for the bride-to-be, moving them both to London, England next April/May. Another postponement truly wasn’t an option. Talking to the venue, an extremely elegant 5 star resort, they continued to watch wedding plans fall apart. Management and staff having had a huge turnover in the wake of the pandemic, and all was in disarray. They truly felt the universe was telling them their Mexico wedding wasn’t meant to be.

A big blow for my daughter and I, especially initially. My 14 year old, holed up in our Oasis, isolated from the rest of the world homeschooling, definitely looking forward to some human interaction. Especially with her Godfather, her oldest brother, whom we rarely get to see. Soon to be seeing even less. (Looks like a trip to London may be in our future if international travel without the Covid vaccine exists at that time.)

As a mom, it took awhile to wrap my mind around the newest development from one of my fabulous children. Never leaving a moment for dullness in my life. The twists and turns coming easier with time, as I realize everything truly does happen for a reason.

Hearing near tears in my grown son’s voice, having regret for the latest change in their hard fought wedding plans, temporarily put on hold. Him feeling deeply unhappy about disappointing his sister, these were words I shared. Everything does truly happen for a reason. We might not be able to understand when it happens, but given time, the pieces all come together and begin to make sense.

A justice of the peace wedding to happen sometime before they make the big move. (And I thought Hollywood was far away!) The wedding for family and friends to attend, not to occur for at least another year now.

That all said, my daughter and I still had resort reservations and airline flights we had already changed once. The resort said guests would have a 12 month credit if they decided to change their plans. But, my thought is, things are only going to get worse before they get better. We are able to go now. I think we should. Not to mention, the disappointment of my daughter if all plans got canceled. And, the fact I was looking forward to some sand and sun.

Everything for a reason! It really has had me pondering, WHY are my daughter and I (along with one other son and his girlfriend) the only ones left going to Mexico?

Me, never having a huge desire to vacation there to begin with, especially since the early 2000’s when all the drug cartel problems started becoming so prevalent. But, when I researched Xcaret, I learned it was different than most cities in the country. A place I became increasingly more curious to see, not only because of the beautiful beaches and the incredibly breath-taking terrain, but the ancient history of the Mayan people. Something I had done an extensive study of back in 2012, with the end of the Mayan calendar.

I have spent the last 2 weeks moving through the anxiety. Watching pieces fall in place. Having beautiful Magickal moments happen around me only reassuring me that, Yes, we are meant to take this trip alone. NEVER a trip I would have initiated on my own. NEVER a resort I would have chosen, living much more humbly.

A little bit extra cash had found its way into my life when initially booking the resort last winter. I decided we would splurge and get one of their elegant “swim out” suites, and that unlike most, we would stay 7 nights instead of 3.

As the countdown of days begins to turn into a countdown of hours, excitement and anticipation builds and mounts. I feel the spirit world calling me. Making me very aware something deeply profound is going to happen once I get my anxious self and my daughter safely to our resort.

Strong emotions well up inside, as I imagine a week from now us having already spent several days in this beautiful tropical haven. What adventure awaits? What mystery lies ahead? So many unknowns as this trip turns into something so unlike anything it was originally planned to be.

I continue making preparations. Making sure all is cared for that needs to be, both at home and abroad. Anticipation looming and excitement building with the Mystery out ahead. My life (and that of my daughter) about to change forever for the positive, as I am aware … the Revolution Begins With Me.

Namaste.

Managing the Alchemy

I don’t know about anyone else, but I am seriously feeling the power of the Full Moon Lunar eclipse, and the initial process of the opening of the Portal. Strong energy coming at me, as I negotiate the Eclipse Gateway.

Even if you have no idea of that which I am speaking, you quite likely are experiencing feelings and energy that are causing restlessness and bringing up emotions from places unknown.

The universe, the planet, the country, individuals; there are tremendous shifts taking place. The next two and a half weeks, from now until the December Lunar Eclipse and the winter solstice, we will be maneuvering energy that is opening doors, allowing for tremendous quantum leaps to occur.

This is a time to let go of that which is no longer working. To allow transformation and metamorphosis to manifest. Surrender into the process.

Be as loving and kind and gentle with yourself as possible. Don’t be making high demands of yourself or others. Instead, be mindful and live in the moment. Take that little bit of extra time to nurture and do self care.

My latest guilty pleasure…new grandpuppies! born 11/28/20.
Only pictures for the moment. But will get to hang out with them in a couple weeks.

Keeping yourself in balance and keeping yourself aligned are key. In every second, there are small things you can do to help make you feel better, help ease the tension, ease the stress. Do what makes you feel good, what makes you happy. Give yourself permission to indulge in your healthy guilty pleasures.

We are paving the way for a new spiritual realm. A long over due, peace-filled and love oriented paradigm shift. This is an exciting, yet harrowing journey, and we are all in it together. Be kind and give love and grace where you can. On the other side, beauty and and untold treasures exist.

I know I will be … for Revolution Begins With Me.

Namaste.

Gemini Full Moon Lunar Eclipse November 2020

If you’re in to astrology at all, or even if you are interesting in looking for a new way to look at life, I highly suggest you check out Tanaaz at foreverconsious.com. I initially discovered her several years ago when I began dabbling in the blogging world. A fellow blogger posting much of what Tanaaz’s writing.

It eventually led me to check out her website. Over the past two years, I have become a diehard follower. My belief growing that the galactic world plays a much larger role in the occurrences of not only my personal life, but life on the planet as a whole.

This year, the galaxy in a highly charged, very rare form, countless planetary and celestial events that seldom happen, transpiring in almost exponential numbers. With the circumstances of my year, and that of the world around me, Tanaaz and her knowledge have been one of my most beneficial guides in maneuvering and maximizing the energy manifesting itself.

With the Portal to a new paradigm set to open in December, I watch with baited breath and excitement as this historical phenomenon materializes.

The Full Moon Lunar Eclipse coming on November 30th, leading us into the “Eclipse Gateway,” the time in between two eclipses that contains heightened, very alchemic energy. The next eclipse on December 14th. (interesting to me that I will find myself in Xcaret, Mexico and Mayan homelands on this date. Never before remotely close.)

This is a period that is immensely transformative and is the energy of alchemy.

Tanaaz‘s words of November’s Lunar Eclipse:

November 30, 2020, brings a Partial Lunar Eclipse in the sign of Gemini.

Lunar Eclipses are like extra potent Full Moons. They illuminate areas of our lives that need to be cleared and swept away. They shine a light on all that no longer needs to be present with us.

They reveal to us where we are holding on too tightly, and where we have to surrender and let go.

Lunar Eclipses are potent for they require us to shed. This shedding can leave us feeling vulnerable, afraid, or uncertain of what is to come. But this Lunar Eclipse holds the promise of a brighter season coming.

It reminds us that whatever space is created by its presence will soon become fertile ground, ready to be adorned with new seeds when the timing comes.

Under this Lunar Eclipse if something falls away from your life. If something comes to pass, try and hold a feeling of trust in your heart.

Eclipses are said to bring fated or destined events our way that are aligned with our highest growth in mind. On a Lunar Eclipse, if something exits your life, trust that it was meant to be. Trust that there is a Divine purpose to what is now no longer.

Of course, endings can always be painful and even sad. So give yourself space to grieve, give yourself permission to feel all that floats up from the depths of your own underbelly.

Under the influence of this Eclipse, we are also being guided to step into our divine feminine. The energy of the divine feminine is not about gender. It is an expression of energy that rules over the hidden, shadow side.

It represents the knowingness in the unknown and the creative qualities that arise when we are in the void.

Tend to your own inner fire. Allow any chaos to shift and move you in the direction of growth. Let those repressed emotions out. Be sure to nurture and nourish yourself as you honor any harvest points of your life.

Tenderly love yourself through whatever the Lunar Eclipse brings your way. Allow yourself to feel completely nourished by the powers of the divine feminine.

As this Full Moon Eclipse falls in Gemini, the sign of the twins, we can use their symbolism to guide us through the lunar energies.

In ancient mythology, the twins were said to represent both the seen, tangible world and the unseen, intangible world. One twin was from this Earth, and the other was not.

These twins are signifiers of both the human and the being that make us human beings. They remind us that we are not just a physical body but a soul as well.

Whatever unfolds on this Eclipse is likely to stir both our physical bodies and our spiritual bodies.

We may find that we are dealing with both of these elements in some way. We may find both our seen and unseen worlds affected or intersecting in a way that we didn’t notice before.

We may even start to become more consciously aware of how our inner state influences our outer state and the way we choose to see things.

Gemini is an air sign, which is rules our mind. Our mind has the power to paint the picture we choose to see. Our mind has the power to take events and attach stories to them.

It is these stories that can trip us up more than the events themselves. It is the stories we tell ourselves that create a lot of stress and anguish in our lives.

Under the power of this Gemini Lunar Eclipse, see if you can calm your mind by releasing any stories that are no longer serving you. See if you can step out of overthinking and into a state of just being.

The twins teach us that we are both human and being, so see if you can find this balance.

See if you can shift away from the ego of your human side, which we very often get wrapped up in, and take time to just honor the still beingness that you are.

Lunar Eclipses always put us where we are meant to be, so no matter what is stirred for you, trust that the pieces will land where they need to.

Use the magical energies of this Lunar Eclipse to connect with your divine feminine, and the totality of all that you are.

You are an incredible being of the cosmos and as the Moon loses its light due to the shadow of the Earth, it is imprinted with a kiss from our collective consciousness, and with this kiss, the Moon offers back its magic, strengthening us for harvest or for release.

Namaste.

The Magic in Numbers

The first time I was exposed to the significance of numbers was almost 20 years ago. I thought the concept foreign, but interesting.  A Physician’s Assistant I was working with in the transplant ICU as a critical care nurse initially shared, telling me that when the number 11:11 appears it means angels are watching you. It began frequently finding its way into our lives.

We eventually would start dating, and as he didn’t like my birthdate, December 23rd, being so close to Christmas, he “changed” it to 11/11. This was significant being Veteran’s Day and him a veteran, a combat medic during the Vietnam War.

Five years after this number was given meaning, as I began to write my first book, The Advocate, the number 11:11 started showing itself quite frequently, as did many other synchronicities in my life. Synchronicities I would hone in on and really start being attention to.

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Tickets to Bob Segar’s farewell concert. My favorite band during high school. Seen him twice before.
Of course I had to get seats in row 111!

Through several of life’s larger transitions, and during every period I needed to dig deeper into myself spiritually, the numbers would start popping back up. Not just 11:11 any more, but other repeating numbers. By this time, I had discovered their relevance as “Angel Numbers”, the Universe at large speaking to anyone paying attention.

Perhaps, one of my most memorable moments of “numbers” speaking to me was three years ago, when I was headed back home to Minnesota for my 35th high school class reunion, a three day event I had been in charge of organizing. An eight hour drive turned into eleven hours (there’s that number again) after forgetting my wallet while stopping for food, but not realizing until an hour and a half down the road.

My 11 year old daughter along side me, we ended up stopping at the first hotel we seen after crossing the Minnesota border. Of course, it was off Exit 11. We checked in at the front desk, “Room 38,” the clerk told us.

Going to unlock the door, I stopped with a pause, as did my daughter. Looking at the number on the door, and thinking closer to what the clerk had just audibly said, “Room 38”. I exclaimed a loud, “Wow!” That was the name of the restaurant/bar my youngest son worked at, my two younger sons both really good friends with the owners.

Many more times that weekend, triple digit numbers would appear before us. The Magic of the Universe making Herself known.

Wrapping the reunion up, I was with a good friend I had known since my earliest memories of the age of 3 or 4. We were at the lake I had called my “second home” as a child.

After taking a walk down along the water, along with my husband, we ended up back at the pavilion where we had picnicked with our classmates. Everything else had been picked up and put away except two large Mylar balloons with our class year on them, “83.” Only in the wind, they had turned themselves around, “38”.

Wow! I had not thought of or noticed that before. Telling my friend about our stop at the hotel, someone who is like minded as me, she pointed out, 8+3=11. There was my number again!

Last year, once again, with great transitions happening in my life, repetitive numbers everywhere. Not so much, 11 anymore, but mostly 444, and then, in the month of December 555. All month long, there it was, everywhere, 555! It wasn’t until a couple days before my birthday, that it hit me. I was turning 55!

The numbers 555, one of several meanings, “A Major Change Is Coming Your Way,” the most relevant. It made so much sense. I had been on a 15 year mission to return my Soul to Self. All cues and synchronicities leading up that moment, knowing I was very close. Transition, a new life outside my door, for I had done the hard work.

Greater Magic awaits me on this journey (and anyone else who cares to open their minds to the magick and synchronicities of life)  … for Revolution Begins With Me.

Keep Your Arms and Legs Inside the Ride at All Times

Reading a post from a fellow blogger this morning instantly made me think of this post. One of a few very early blogs from February of 2016. I felt obliged to share again.

It’s eerie rereading this now. For I know I have visions. I know I just know things. A blessing or a curse? A question all my life. I finally have an answer. A true blessing!

The words I read …

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Damage in Moore, Oklahoma June 2013

(Edited and reposted from February 20, 2016)

After four sacrificial years away, having left to find work to support us while I finished writing my first book, my husband and the father of our daughter, finally returned to live with us.

He rode up that day on his Harley. All he carried with him was a change of clothes and his toothbrush. He returned just in time to watch our daughter perform at her big dance recital.

The following Monday, we headed off if in a torrential down pour for Oklahoma to retrieve his car and some of his belongings, and for me to say goodbye to my oldest son as he prepared to move to California.

I knew I shouldn’t have been driving. The roads were slick and the tires on my car were bald. I could feel us hydroplaning several times.

With low visibility, in spite of me knowing how to drive in bad weather, driving is my husband’s expertise. Why was I the one behind the wheel?

Before I had the opportunity to find a dry place to stop and let him take over, the car did a donut and headed for the ditch, rear end first. It was an omen of what was to follow.

It took over an hour for the tow truck to arrive and get us back on the road.

As we drove southwest, we found dry roads ahead. The rest of the trip was uneventful, but as we headed down I-44 west of Tulsa, I received a text from my son asking where we were.

We had another hour and a half of driving and he told me to hurry up and get to Oklahoma City, bad weather was on its way.

Emergency weather alerts were broadcast on all channels. We were being told we had two hours at best before damaging winds and hail, along with dangerous tornadoes, some possibly in the F4 or F5 category, would be over the city.

Chilling at the very least, since the 3rd big tornado during my time connected to the state had just moved through Moore a few weeks earlier, once again doing significant damage.

We arrived at my sister-in-laws as several tornadoes were reported in El Reno and Yukon, 30 miles west of us. Fortunately, they were real slow-moving.

The thought was to stay put hoping we might be missed, or that we’d be safe in the underground portion of her house.

My son, who’s vicinity was near, had said he was sticking it out at his home. Suddenly he sent a text. He was heading south for a friends in Moore as the storm steadily moved in a northeast direction.

That made me grow concerned as he’s typically of a calm rational demeanor.

As we watched on TV, the tornado was heading our way. With panic, the weather reports were calling an “EMERGENCY WEATHER ALERT”.

We ended up getting in our cars, three separate vehicles, as we didn’t want to come back and find them all hail damaged by the reported softball size hail.

My husband drove his sister’s van, taking our daughter. I didn’t want her to be in another accident with me at the wheel. His oldest son, with his pet ferret, rode with me, and his sister followed behind us.

Heading east down I-44, there were dark skies up ahead. The weather man reported the tornadoes were right on our tale, passing over landmarks we had just driven by.

The sky to the south was clear and blue, so we made the decision to get on I-35 and drive that direction. Apparently, along with half the city, as cars were bumper to bumper and moving real slow.

No sooner than we did, the weatherman says, “Oh wow, the tornado just did something they never do! It just took a sharp right turn and is now heading towards Moore!”

Panic hit my heart. The cloudless blue sky above, instantly turned a deadening black, and the winds quickly picked up.

I tried calling my husband, but his phone had been left in my car.

The transformers above began popping and flashing. Their van, directly in front of us, started to seriously rock as the wind increased. I feared it would tip over.

His son asked where we were going. I had no idea, but I knew we needed to get off the interstate.

At the next exit there was a church just off the road. Cars were exiting and hopping the curb.

I followed suit, with my husband doing the same. Being the athletic one, I grabbed our daughter and ran for the church, losing one of my sandals and unknowingly, my car keys along the way.

By the time I got there some men had broken the back door in with a fallen tree. They were escorting women and children through the broken glass.

Once inside, they got everyone settled in a room and did a head count as a tornado passed over. One of the last to arrive said they could see the roof of the church pulsating as they pulled up.

We sat it out for over an hour before the winds calmed down enough for some men to go out and assess the damage.

We had been fortunate, it hadn’t touched down or the church would have been wiped away.

The F5 from weeks earlier had taken that same exact path, leaving massive destruction in its wake.

The next day, when we went back to search for my lost car keys, we seen the damage all around us from the prior tornado; demolished shopping malls, movie theatres, hills of smashed cars, and only piles of debris where homes once stood.

It was eerie and surreal. It had felt like we had become part of a movie set. The enormity of what had happened and what could have happened was all around us.

My son had made it to his friends’ home. They sat it out in the hallway with a mattress over their heads and his friends’ dogs going wild.

My son had taken off down the freeway. We were a short distance behind him, and the tornadoes were directly behind us.

The fact that it took a sharp right turn just as we did was symbolic to me.

We had already lived through a life of hell during our six-year stay in Oklahoma. This seemed like a clear message of preparation for what was to come.

Dark times were upon our beloved country, most citizens oblivious. We were certain to be a part of it, but we were to be protected.

It was no coincidence. It was serendipity or God’s message. I knew our lives were that of warriors. We would always be out running tornadoes or whatever calamity was sent our way.

It was a message, as it had been two months earlier when my family and I stayed at our place in Kissimmee, FL.

We rode all the wild rides at the local theme parks with the constant warning, “Keep your arms and legs inside the ride at all times. Be prepared to come to a sudden and abrupt stop.”

Bad times for our country lay ahead and we were being shown how to survive.

We were the warriors and I was a change agent. For, someone has to do something, and I am aware … the Revolution Begins With Me.