It’s About the Energy

A super hero lies within each and everyone of us!

It was obvious from birth I was different from most my age. Weighing in at 9 lbs. 15 oz. and 23 inches long, I was big.

Not stopping there, I continued to grow, until I was 5′ 9″ and 11 years old. Not remarkably tall for an adult woman, but awkwardly tall at that age.

It wasn’t only my height that set me apart though. It was my brain and the way it functioned, received, and processed data.

Aware I was always a visual learner, it wasn’t until adulthood and the birth of my oldest son that I really began to analyze the lenses I used to look at the world.

Knowing we were painfully similar at times, I began searching out answers to nurture his gifts at a really young age.

Energy…powers the world!
What type of energy will you contribute?

The word “energy” started presenting itself in many formats. One that would become a constant in my life as a mother, was “Your son is extremely high energy! He’s non-stop hyper. His mouth is never silent.”

Yes!! This was all quite accurate, but buried deep within that hyperactive, uniquely verbal, unsilencable tornado was a highly intelligent, profoundly gifted child. It became my mission to seek out ways for him to best be understood, and the other 3 children that followed as well.

In my early years, especially as a nurse, I had bought into the whole ADD/ADHD diagnosis. Now I know many of the psych diagnosis are only there to help Western medicine physicians categorize and medicate phenomenon that don’t make sense in this unnatural world.

Time, and critical nurse analysis, have caused me to come to the conclusion its not the individual that is “disordered,” its our society.

Our society is so out of balance with its natural order, that these children, and adults, who were born more tuned into their natural environment, are out of rhythm, out of sync with the false paradigm orchestrated around us.

I knew I was going against the grain back then, but I set out with a new intent. To raise my children so that society DOES NOT strip them of their spirit’s and the spiritual gifts bestowed upon them.

That conscious decision as a young adult has completely altered the way I look at life. I began to turn more inward, to my unique extraordinary self.

I DID see things differently, and having gone through a period where I had healed significant childhood scars, even more ENERGY was bestowed upon me.

It became my life’s high, seeking out opportunities where I could get that solid self-gratifying energy rush.

I knew a primary source was caring for others; my patients, their families, my children. People would ask how I could do what I did, give so freely from my heart, and my response was, “I do it for selfish reasons.” Because doing so makes me feel better.

Flash forward 30 years, and my initial discovery of “energy” has grown exponentially. Now it has other words I may use to describe it; chi, Prahna, Holy Spirit, ect. The life force that truly makes us human. The life force that is purposefully being drained from humanity. (But that’s a whole other article.)

Any more, at my age, absolutely everything I do, and all that I see is “energy” focused.

Decades ago, gradually leaving the world of 3-dimensional living, moving more directly into a 5-dimensional paradigm, with my visual acuity the strongest in the non-physical realms. Frequencies of higher consciousness that many might argue aren’t even real, I am capable of seeing as clear as any sun-filled day.

Consciously knowing that all I do is focused on cultivating and harvesting energy. In other words, living in the world of art and creativity. Whether its gardening, writing, crafting, nurturing a pet or family member, exercising. All that I do ends with the result of positive energy generated. And, in doing so, keeps me on a positive upward growth curve.

Knowingly, those skills and talents had been focused on my own self-healing, and that of my family for quite some time.

Last year, the first year to break that cycle. All “energy” generated was poured into my new creative sense of being, knowing my day to step up on a bigger platform was almost at hand.

The by-product of years of tending my fields for their best harvests paying off. There was nothing but bright lights and wide open spaces out in front of me.

I see this as no chance coincidence, the vision I had always shared with my sons, “We will be climbing above, when everyone else has fallen,” having come true. Though, never could I have imagined it so literally. Yet, I know God has prepared me for this time.

My Light within emitting more radiance than it ever has. The power of that energy just beginning to make itself known.

It’s all in the “Energy”. Staying aware of it, and moving it in the right direction. The time for me now … to take it over the top!

I know I have crazy talents lying dormant within me. The truth is, the majority of us do. The truth is the majority of us will never discover the great wealth we carry within because we’re so busy chasing material wealth, the novelties in 3-dimensional living.

A new paradigm has opened though. A new vision of the planet beginning to take shape. Each day more and more individuals waking up to that which has lied dormant within for a lifetime.

I move forward … my heart calm, my soul at peace, knowing inside me lies the power to change the world … and the drive to do so. I step out into the new year, 2021, filled with strength, courage, and grace. Time has come to step into myself because … Revolution Begins With Me.

Namaste.

It’s About the Energy

A super hero lies within each and everyone of us!

It was obvious from birth I was different from most my age. Weighing at 9 lbs. 15 oz. and 23 inches long, I was a big new born.

Definitely not stopping there, I continued to grow, and didn’t stop until I was 5′ 9″ and 11 years old. (I won’t mention my weight, but it is the same as I weigh now.) Not remarkably tall for an adult woman, but awkwardly tall at that age.

It wasn’t only my height that set me apart though. It was my brain and the way it functioned, received, and processed data.

Aware I was always a visual learner, it wasn’t until adulthood and the birth of my oldest son that I really began to analyze the lenses I used to look at the world.

Knowing we were painfully similar at times, I began searching out answers to nurture his gifts at a really young age.

Energy…powers the world!
What type of energy will you contribute?

The word “energy” started presenting itself in many formats. One that would become a constant in my life as a mother, was “Your son is extremely high energy! He’s non-stop hyper. His mouth is never silent.”

Yes!! This was all quite accurate, but buried deep within that hyperactive, uniquely verbal, unsilencable tornado was a highly intelligent, profoundly gifted child. It became my mission to seek out ways for him to best be understood, and the other 3 children that followed as well.

In my early years, especially as a nurse, I had bought into the whole ADD/ADHD diagnosis. Now I know many of the psych diagnosis are only there to help Western medicine physicians categorize and medicate phenomenon that don’t make sense in this unnatural world.

Time, and critical nurse analysis, have caused me to come to the conclusion its not the individual that is “disordered,” its our society.

Our society is so out of balance with its natural order, that these children, and adults, who were born more tuned into their natural environment, are out of rhythm, out of sync with the false paradigm orchestrated around us.

I knew I was going against the grain back then, but I set out with a new intent. To raise my children so that society DOES NOT strip them of their spirit’s and the spiritual gifts bestowed upon them.

That conscious decision as a young adult has completely altered the way I look at life. I began to turn more inward, to my unique extraordinary self.

I DID see things differently, and having gone through a period where I had healed significant childhood scars, even more ENERGY was bestowed upon me.

It became my life’s high, seeking out opportunities where I could get that solid self-gratifying energy rush.

I knew a primary source was caring for others; my patients, their families, my children. People would ask how I could do what I did, give so freely from my heart, and my response was, “I do it for selfish reasons.” Because doing so makes me feel better.

Flash forward 30 years, and my initial discovery of “energy” has grown exponentially. Now it has other words I may use to describe it; chi, Prahna, Holy Spirit, ect. The life force that truly makes us human. The life force that is purposefully being drained from humanity. (But that’s a whole other article.)

Any more, at my age, absolutely everything I do, and all that I see is “energy” focused.

Decades ago, gradually leaving the world of 3-dimensional living, moving more directly into a 5-dimensional paradigm, with my visual acuity the strongest in the non-physical realms. Frequencies of higher consciousness that many might argue aren’t even real, I am capable of seeing as clear as any sun-filled day.

Consciously knowing that all I do is focused on cultivating and harvesting energy. In other words, living in the world of art and creativity. Whether its gardening, writing, crafting, nurturing a pet or family member, exercising. All that I do ends with the result of positive energy generated. And, in doing so, keeps me on a positive upward growth curve.

Knowingly, those skills and talents had been focused on my own self-healing, and that of my family for quite some time.

Last year, the first year to break that cycle. All “energy” generated was poured into my new creative sense of being, knowing my day to step up on a bigger platform was almost at hand.

The by-product of years of tending my fields for their best harvests paying off. There was nothing but bright lights and wide open spaces out in front of me.

I see this as no chance coincidence, the vision I had always shared with my sons, “We will be climbing above, when everyone else has fallen,” having come true. Though, never could I have imagined it so literally. Yet, I know God has prepared me for this time.

My Light within emitting more radiance than it ever has. The power of that energy just beginning to make itself known.

It’s all in the “Energy”. Staying aware of it, and moving it in the right direction. The time for me now … to take it over the top!

I know I have crazy talents lying dormant within me. The truth is, the majority of us do. The truth is the majority of us will never discover the great wealth we carry within because we’re so busy chasing material wealth, the novelties in 3-dimensional living.

A new paradigm has opened though. A new vision of the planet beginning to take shape. Each day more and more individuals waking up to that which has lied dormant within for a lifetime.

I move forward … my heart calm, my soul at peace, knowing inside me lies the power to change the world … and the drive to do so. I step out into the new year, 2021, filled with strength, courage, and grace. Time has come to step into myself because … Revolution Begins With Me.

Namaste.

Next Steps … Manifesting

Creativity means removing the restraints that society and self have placed upon ones psyche. The fire to create comes from the soul. From a place of letting all that you are come to the surface to view in a beautiful previously unknown form..

Writing my 1st book, The Advocate, however, was somewhat of a different process. It was an undertaking of going deep within and dredging up horrific events, horrific unnecessary events I had witnessed as a nurse. And, facing the hideous demons and what had happened to my life while in a culture of darkness. Cathartic to write, to say the least.

A critical care nurse, and good at what I did, especially when it came to interaction with family and friends of my patients, typically sedated or unconscious and on ventilators because of severe illness or trauma. My gift was a connection with spirit, my patient’s spirits, an innate part of me I hadn’t analyzed at the time.

Writing this book became the time for me to connect with my spirit, and as someone who had gone through a traumatic event, to heal through the process.

The book finished over seven years ago. Having had secured an agent three years prior, directing me on how to really bring my story to life. Very sound advice I was given. She had stated it would be “the hardest thing you’ve ever done.” I knew that wasn’t true. Living it had been.

Once complete, I was left in an enormous liminal space. Not the person I was before I started the book, no idea who I was as it was finished. Left in countless little pieces. Unaware of what I was meant to become. Still uncertain now, but my feet have finally found solid ground.

My three sons, as young children, had lived through experiences that would make them more aware of themselves and the world around them as adults. Evolving into strong, solid individuals because they knew what it was like to be in dark times and survive. Coming out more confident and courageous than they could ever have imagined.

Climbing out of the darkness together, I had told them, “We will rise above as the rest of the world is falling.”

Aware my visions always came true, but sometimes in ways my mind, living on a physical plane, previously couldn’t comprehend. In March, when the corona virus shut down the planet, my family in the most solid place, as a whole unit, it had ever been, my words of over a decade ago struck me with great awe. I could never have imagined their meaning being so literal.

Our summer spent enjoying life more fully than we ever have, especially my young daughter and I. Making memories that will last a lifetime. Opportunities coming to us that had never been provided. All the while in between, enjoying the splendor we had spent the last 6 years creating in our country Oasis.

For me, it has been a year of celebration. A year of culmination of the decades of sacrifice and healing. A year of looking at all the pieces of self I had decided to salvage, and after placing them back together, marveling at what was created. In the end, becoming a year of returning to spirit (FINALLY).

My year’s “harvest” in. All the magnificent and glorious energy created over the months, it becomes time to return to reflection and inner contemplation.

With my daughter on track with her home school 9th grade year. I find myself asking, what are my “next steps”?

I know the answer. I knew it was coming. I began to sense it last fall. I had a very strong feeling a year ago now, “Your life will never ever be the same.” Living each moment fully. soaking it up, knowing tremendous evolution was underway.

The people who knew of my writing and my book, long ago tired of asking me when I was going to publish. My response always being, “Soon. I will know when the time is right.” Well, that time has finally come.

My “next steps” are presenting themselves. I know the process of what I need to do. Not because I’m proficient at publishing, but because I’ve gone through the blueprint once, realizing at the time that writing and publishing were two separate entities, and that at the time, I wasn’t ready. But, I have been preparing for this day mentally ever since.

Cognizant it is a process. A process that begins with one simple step. And as beautiful as the Universe is, that first simple step came to me in word form this morning from a fellow bloggers post.

“Take up one idea. Make that idea your life. Dream of it, think of it, Live on that idea. This is the way to success.”

My idea is to publish. It will come in baby steps and increments. But for certain, it will come. For the moment is now … and Now is for manifesting.

Life is too short … it’s time to turn visions into reality … for The Revolution Begins With Me.

Sacred Fool

(Words for the Sacred Rebel in ALL of us. Sacred Rebels question the way things have to be. They dare to dream of a healthier world based more in love than fear. Sacred rebels believe in love and defy those that say, “You need to live in the real world!” Sacred rebels are living in the real world. Theirs is a world of love, possibility, individuality, and freedom. Sacred rebels refuse to be put down by those who ae frightened of being truly alive.)

The fool is a great rebel, able to thwart convention, and tell the truth without restraint. Your heart is a wonderful, powerful, sacred fool! It cares not for the right way to do things. It cares not for what the mind says is real and not real. It lives according to an inner wisdom that cannot be dictated to or controlled by anything! It loves, it lives, it is what it is!

“Don’t try to be appropriate, don’t try to be socially acceptable and worry about what others may think about what you are doing- just be.”

The sacred fool in you is willing to leave behind what has been because it no longer feels right to stay attached to it. The sacred fool in you trusts life completely.

It recognized the mind as a monkey puppet on strings. More often than not, it is cajoled into fear when it could be playfully dwelling in the radical spontaneity of life. So, the sacred fool in you urges your mind to let itself be pulled into joy by your heart strings, not into fear and doubt by the controlling machines of mass media.

… a message. It’s time for you to play. It’s time for you to let life happen in a completely unreserved, unscripted way, the more bizarre, left of field, unexpected and apparently ridiculous the better. (My childhood bestie and I apparently have always known this! Lol!) That might not feel safe or appropriate at first. That is okay. That is actually a good sign that you are breaking with your own self-imposed conventions. It is time to move beyond them now because a bigger life adventure is calling you.

This is wonderful news. It is the desire of life to operate more radically through you so that you become the conduit through which miracles and crazy wild synchronicity can occur. (My last couple years! Fabulous opportunities presenting themselves. And, best part, it is only the beginning of what the Universe has planned We all have the potential to have this!) You are more electric. You are more plugged into the apparent randomness of life.

If you find yourself making choices that have others questioning your sanity, then you are on the right course. (Guess I must have always been then. Lol) You are just approaching enlightened awareness. There is a moment – … – when we wake up to life, shed our attachment to mass opinion and float in a completely different state of being.

You will eventually see that you are becoming sane in am insane world. (Amen!) The table will turn and you will gain great inner freedom and creative juice. Stay on your path, stay on your journey, remember to take nothing too seriously and it will all work out perfectly.

Alana Fairchild – Mystic, Healer, Creative Spiritual Educator

Dare to embrace the Sacred Fool within! I do … for the Revolution Begins With Me

Reclaiming Spirit!

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This is my year! My focus, not to be on the past, but on forward movement, to reclaim all that is mine. All that is me.

Our country, our planet, is on the verge of ascending from a greatly destructive and traumatic period, not just on a physical level, but more significantly, on a spiritual one, into to a place of inner peace and self love.

Multitudes around the planet, having lived through, and survived, ruination of a “mythical” world they once lived in, are beginning to reclaim their inner beings, their souls.

A “mythical” world, as most of us have been living in a world, prescribed to us by those who believe they are in control. We have given up our inalienable rights as humans, in search of trinkets and ego-boosting existences, that have allowed our planet to head towards its demise.

There is a massive shift in consciousness happening though. People finally beginning to look within for answers, as opposed to looking to those they think are experts on matters of life and theology. Where in sincerity, we are our own true masters.

For me, waking to my own consciousness decades ago, but being surrounded by people whose self-limiting ideals and theologies brought destruction to my own life, I needed to obliterate the ignorance, and be honest with myself about any of my own self-eradicating behaviors.

A Healer by nature, the last 15 years have been focused on removing any negative energy and people that held me down. Focused on healing my then young family, I have watched them turn into strong, confident, self-aware individuals. It is now my turn to put full focus on me and the next leg of my odyssey.

The biggest, and most consequential piece of my transformation, was my unrelenting search to return my spirit to self. Not an easy task, one that took much inward focus and commitment, to look into those painful places where the deepest damage was obtained. With the help of like minded people, those who knew the journey well, for they had traveled it themselves, success was inevitable.

Entwined deeply to my youngest son on an energetic level, one who lived through much trauma in his life as a young child, I always knew we would climb out of the darkness together, one day to soar to the highest realms.

Now 23, watching him jump through multiple and seemingly endless hoops, to be allowed to join the United States Navy, (initially with the thought of becoming a Navy SEAL) great rewards were brought to him over the year. Rewards, in many facets of his young adult life.

Together we forge ahead, out of the pain and darkness of our own trauma, our Dark Nights of the Soul, moving forward with a mission to help those on a like path, looking for the Light they have lost in their own lives. Here, to testify, you can make it. You will make it! Not an easy road, but a road increasing numbers are beginning to travel.

We are living in a historical and Magical time. The war between Good and evil heightened to a crescendo. The time is ripe for those of us Awake and wanting change to step up and ban together to take our world back.

Through a mass conscious Awakening, the Shift is beginning to occur. The downward spiral halting. Momentum to be gained as we integrate on one United front. The Awakening and reclaiming of our souls and our spirits front and center in the Movement.

I take the moment to reflect on my past years growth on so many counts. Show gratitude for all that was given to me. Forgive myself where I need to. Then, embrace and fortify that which has been growing deep within my being, as I move forward into the revolution that is at hand … for the Revolution Begins With Me.

My Rant in Stormy February

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Brainwashing has been complete.

Raised Catholic and forced from every angle to conform, except my dad who questioned also. Having children of my own. Teaching them the most important tool is to “know thyself.” As young men now, they show me the power of what that means.

Regathering strength as I move forward with publishing my memoir, The Advocate, what I thought was a story of my journey as a nurse, and where healthcare in this country has gone, and descends further. Finding an agent, following her direction, took me deep into the world of Truth.

Trying to wrap my mind around the lifetime of lies. Cognitive Dissonance. People don’t want to wake from their empty little worlds. Dumbing down a success.

The warriors and lightkeepers rising though. An awakening is on the forefront. My insight and knowledge tells me there’s going to be a connection to 2021. The 100 year anniversary of the Tulsa Race Riots.

https://www.history.com/topics/roaring-twenties/tulsa-race-riot

We’ve been manipulated/ groomed for quite some time for a replay in history. The purposeful division between the country with a large assist from Main Stream Media, the hatred brewing, being stewed. Hate groups being funded by government fractions.

How could this horrific event have happened with the majority of the country unaware? Uneducated? Even after having a black president? If he really wanted to help his race, and those of minorities, he could have shined a light into one of homeland America’s darkest and dirtiest little secrets.

One thing is for certain, we are living in historical times. The choices people make now, including lack of choice, lack of awareness, will decide which side of the aisle they are on.

As Mark Twain said,
“In the beginning of a change the patriot is a scarce man, and brave, and hated and scorned. When his cause succeeds, the timid join him, for then it costs nothing to be a patriot.”

The Phoenix Is Rising

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Spirit and energy, words that took on new meaning a quarter of a century ago. A time when I truly embraced the fact that I was a free spirit.  Something everyone in my young life seemed to want to stifle except for my dad who was also a free spirit.

It was the beginning of a brand-new journey, totally embarking on The Road Less Traveled. Two roads diverged in the woods and I, certainly, took the one less traveled by.

My eldest son who was two at the time helped me embrace the inquisitive spiritual side of my being. I let him take the lead and we followed his curious, creative, and highly energetic spirit down new untrekked territory. He gave me the strength to dig within, to heal wounds that needed healing, then to venture down new avenues, previously, I never before would have embarked on.

Five years later, with the birth of my second son, my spiritual sense grew even stronger. At the time, my life was in a place of total transformation, one I embraced completely and passionately.

At the time, the biggest part of this alteration was entering the gym and making the weight-room my new home. It was an environment that allowed instant transformation. I embraced the lifestyle of a bodybuilder.

I was given the gift of a friend, also a fellow bodybuilder, one who possessed a strong knowing of a deeper spiritual world. His mother had been 100% Cherokee Indian. He was raised in the beauty of the Ozark mountains and had been taught an appreciation of Mother Earth.

He spoke of the Earth’s energy. Although, I had never heard these words before, it was something I felt deep in my core. Unspoken words of my father, yet passionately, instilled within me growing up in rural Minnesota, surrounded by the magnificence of my native land.

My friend would speak to me of energy. How I possessed a strong powerful aura. How to care for and manage this gift. How to remove the Ego from my being. He would speak to me of worlds I had never known, worlds most people don’t know exist, deeper levels of consciousness.

His words were completely foreign to me, and although I couldn’t begin to grasp their enormity, I knew they held truth because I could feel it. Over time, my appreciation would grow.

Life would throw me many curveballs; the birth of a third son, ongoing health problems, (later to discover related to severe mercury poisoning,) divorce and alienation from family, and my father’s suicide. All I knew was to go deeper into the spirit world I had uncovered and further down the road less traveled.

I had been living in Minnesota, working as a critical care nurse in a Level 1 trauma hospital, encompassed by trauma and death on a daily basis, yet surrounded by people who would feed and nourish my spiritual quest. I was raised Catholic, but Christianity took on new meaning. God’s love more real.

Suddenly, I found myself faced with a new conundrum, the challenge to move my family to a foreign land (what some call Oklahoma). Committed to listen to the voice within, with the spiritual support from the hospital’s chaplain, Greg, someone who would become an integral part of my survival, I moved. Almost instantly, I found myself submerged in complete darkness.

Mother Earth’s rewards that fed my soul were instantly gone; the freedom that movement and exercise created, the purifying quality of the lakes from my youth, the empowerment of the greenery and environs discovered in my awakening land, and the seasons that cultivated my spirit had all vanished.

Surrounded by desert terrain, my spirit began to shrivel. My world instantly flipped upside down. All that I had learned over a lifetime, suddenly was reversed. I somehow had fallen into a dark void and could not comprehend.

Five years into a six-year sentence, at the age of 40, the negative forces won out. After a lifetime of fighting to hang onto my free-will, stay true to my spirit, I was finally broken. My spirit had been eroding away, but precipitously, it was left in ashes.

The choice was to surrender to death or commit myself wholeheartedly to a power greater than myself. Humble my physical being to the energy within, leading me into an alien world. I succumbed. The love of my children was my food source. It kept me moving, kept me focused.

One of my life’s mottos had always been, “The only way through it, is through it,” so with a stronger faith in God than ever before, onward I went.

Dark energy trying to swallow me unlike ever before, I stayed more grounded and attentive than ever before. Time would yield my reprieve. I finally received my physical freedom, allowed to move back to a land that had always felt like home, Columbia, Missouri.

In the midst of the darkness, I always heard a powerful voice telling me, “They have no idea who you are. You have no idea who you are.”

I knew at my core I possessed an imperious gift for healing. I witnessed it on countless occasions as an ICU nurse. It was my time to turn within and use those gifts on myself and my family. Time became irrelevant. The material world unfamiliar.

Far so distant, I could not recall what it felt like to possess that deep spiritual peace that so long ago had fed my soul. I would hear words or see visions and follow them. They would bring me closer, lift the dark energy. Allow forgiveness of myself and others to occur. Transcend.

Last fall the words became clear, “Free at 53”. My 53rd birthday on the horizon, I committed to a new workout regime, not rigid, but daily free-flowing. I knew exercise, nature, and music would return my freedom.

I began walking our 3 ½ acres more frequently. The land we had cleared at the bottom of our backyard hill, near the creek where a new fire pit had been put in, commenced as a sacred ground. I would walk “the stations” nature had provided for me, allowing my mystic self to unfold.

I didn’t know what would emerge. It seemed like it would magically occur on my birthday. Though a wonderful memory was created, it didn’t happen that way. I knew I was absorbing the powerful energy of my children, but time would be needed to transform.

New Year’s Day passed. Anxiety suddenly replaced the wonderful peaceful energy I had been experiencing. A few more days to ourselves before returning to school and work, we lounged around the house, trying to keep those emotions at bay.

One morning lying in bed, I felt nudged to organize some papers that had piled on my dresser. I took out the box that contained all my important files. Sorting through them, I ran across several from the dark days of my past. One of my “stations” in my sacred land was the old fire pit where I would walk by and imagine burning any negative energy that still lingered within.

With a fire blazing in the basement wood stove, I knew it was time for me to burn any remnants of my past. I immediately gathered all my painful dark memories and tossed them in the fire. It was time. It was what needed to be done.

The next morning upon waking, I called my dear friend Greg, who had become my spiritual guide over the years. We had nurtured a strong spiritual bond. I told him of my past weeks experiences and how it had commenced the prior morning. He affirmed what I had done stating, “You’ve burned all the negative energy.”

As with the frequent magic of Greg’s words, it was almost instant, an energetic shift. Any lingering negative energy resolved. I was placed in circle of peace. A place of calm. A place of love.

In my mind, I had been reflecting on the 12-year anniversary of the moment my spirit went up in smoke, left in ashes, January 5th. It was no coincidence that I had found those papers and burned them just 3 days prior.

The 5th passed with new unfamiliar emotions within my being. Peacefulness. Bliss. Harmony with the earth. Harmony with myself. I was feeling life anew. My senses were heightened. Colors more vibrant. Sounds clearer. Taste more flavorful. Touch more alive.

It instantly came to me. After decades of struggle and years of darkness my freedom had been given back. The phoenix was rising.

 

 

 

THE BECOMING

I’m saying good-bye to…. a decade of watching my boys turn into men, into true spiritual warriors.  A decade of giving life to a beautiful angel and watching her grow.  A decade of allowing the little girl within me to go to the light.  A decade of releasing the anger so the passion could return.  A decade of fighting for the return of my spirit and my freedom.

I am reclaiming my voice.  For only in bringing the truth out of the shadows will this planet find its way back to a more natural and benevolent universe.  I am reclaiming the light God placed within me so it will shine bright like a beacon for all those lost, hurting, or longing for a more peaceful world.

This is my return to love.  For only through love will we reclaim the supreme strength and energy our Greater Power has placed within us.  I am ready to stand tall, proud, and confident for I am a child of God and with God there is no fear.  There is only love.

This is my Becoming.  The Revolution begins with me.